not just another friday.
A happy friday to all of you! I guess I just wanted to take some time to share a bit. Our vacation to Palm Springs was much needed. We found out a few weeks ago that our first attempt at IVF did not work (after all of this). It was heartbreaking to say the least. That's actually the exact wording I used when a friend asked me how I was doing after our long struggle with infertility, my eventual pregnancy...then miscarriage...and our first failed IVF...I said to her "I just feel heartbroken". So we decided that we needed some time away. It was so amazing and so needed. To heal our bodies and our hearts. And now we start over. A little hard to explain, but basically, not only did our first attempt at IVF not work, but we also have NO frozen embryos to work with. ugh! A very complicated and long story...the bottomline is we must start with more shots, another egg retrieval, etc. It's been a long process, but I'm ok and ready to dive in head first again. We will get there. I just know it.
And as my husband always says, "everything is going to be ok". I wanted to post this to not only give an update but also to say a big huge thanks to all our family, friends, and readers. It's been a long 3 years filled with a lot of heartbreak, but also a journey filled with a lot of smiles. You have all been there for us throughout all of this and one cannot express in words how much that means. I just wanted to say thanks for hanging in there with me. Thank you for the kind words. Thank you for letting me be honest! Just a big huge thank you! I wasn't sure if I'd ever share this part of our lives on this blog, but once I did, it really helped me feel a whole lot better! So thank you for letting me be me. For letting me be vulnerable and for being so supportive. It means the world to G and me.
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So beautifully said. It can be so hard watching others move forward and have progress in their lives while it feels like you are stuck on a Ferris Wheel - going around and around, up and down, but with no progress... Thinking of you and sending positive thoughts for your next round. xo
Sweetheart- thanks for sharing. You know I feel you, I really really feel your pain. The memory is so strong it haunts me. Four years of trying and I am proof happy endings are possible. Stay strong, keep your beautiful spirits lifted. Prayers are with you. xoxo
You are an inspiration how positive a person can be in this situation. Everything really does happen for a reason, trust me I know. It took years of trying for us (& eventual intervention), but everything makes sense for me now. Thank you for sharing your story, sending positive vibes to you & G for success. However you get to the end result doesn't matter, it will all be worth it in the end. Keep your spirit up and live life to the fullest! Hugs!
I feel heartbroken for you and George, too. But I'm glad to hear you've had some relaxation and you are ready to jump back into the process. However it happens, one day you will hold your little miracle and know everything was worth it!
Hugs to you and Georges. We are thinking of you and sending lots of positive vibes your way. You two are wonderful people and I know you will be wonderful parents too!
This post is sooooo brave and inspiring. Sending you & G love and luck.