opening up.
So I thought now might be as good a time as any to talk about this on my blog. I've written this post about a thousand times and I've deleted it about that many times too. I just wasn't sure if I was ready to share. I kept thinking, well soon I will have some good news to share and then I can talk about how all of this happened to me "way back when". Well, since that hasn't exactly been the way our story has unfolded, I decided to finally write a bit about a journey my husband and I have been on for the past few years. We have been struggling to have a baby. It's been a long road filled with many ups and downs. We tried for 2 years to get pregnant without it ever happening. The good news, we did FINALLY get pregnant via an IUI treatment, but I miscarried at 9 weeks. I keep trying to focus on the positive...I did get pregnant. In our journey of infertility, even getting preggo in the first place was a big huge gigantic hurdle we overcame, so in one sense we are so very lucky. Many couples go on for years of unsuccessful fertility treatments, never once getting to hear any good news. So we are hopeful, so very hopeful. And we've met some wonderful people along the way...some bloggers, some friends of friends, some complete strangers that I now call friends. You see the thing is, I didn't know anyone close to me that has struggled with this, so in the beginning I felt very alone, but now that I have been able to talk about what has happened I feel so much better. I no longer feel lonely. So, I guess my point in even writing this blog post is the hope that I can make even one person feel a little less alone. To let you know that my life is not all about sequins and parties and vacations. It is a REAL life with many many many wonderful moments, but some very difficult ones as well. G and I know that we will one day have our happy little family, whichever way the journey leads us.
{photo by me}
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This was a beautiful post. I love every one of your posts for stylish insights, but I will continue to read because you are truthful. Thank you for showing some vulnerability and sharing with us what you have gone through. I am praying for you that the family that you so desire comes to be!
Thank you for sharing. Do not lose hope. After 5 painful miscarriages and one D&C that left me completely heartbroken and depressed, we had Analiese. She was unplanned and we were so scared. We, at least I, was sure it would end again like all the rest. She was the first heart beat I ever heard and the sweetest sound. She is our only and every pregnancy since her has ended like all the rest. They all hurt just as much as the first but I have hope because sometimes, miracles happen and sometimes more than once. You'll get your miracle, just wait.
@MMB: Awwww, thank you for your sweet words!
@Yanira: Thank you for sharing your story too. And thank you for your encouraging words...they mean so very much! I just saw pics of your daughter on your blog...she is gorgeous!
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How brave of you! I know what a big step this is for you & I'm glad to hear that sharing your story has helped you to connect to others!! Your day will come & in the meantime I so applaud you for making an effort to live life to the fullest & have as many happy moments as possible-you are my inspiration!!